EccentricGeek
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above all, let me give you a littele insights about me:
unlike any other, i never had a normal childhood. my parents got separated when i was 6, my father was alcoholic and never treated me as his daughter (like normal father do) its for simple reason that i have features that was my mother's. from that moment my realization was i will get into different environment.
i live a very hard life to the fact that i never enjoy my childhood since i worked early (child labor) to make both ends meet. i remember i was full of hope then and willing to get out of the situation. i got married at 21 and years passed i got my annulment and the child's custody.
here's my dillema:
people around me think am normal since they tend to see what is present. i have no problem in socializing, but once i'm alone, i feel this certain emptiness. sometimes i feel a lot tired of life. why is it have to be like this that sometimes i feel i've already achieved the goals that i need and now i've loss interest in life? i really want to bring back the feeling of having a goal.
what should i do? a lot of times, i woke in the middle of the night to feel restless. it seems that i have two faces: the one that i wear when am with the society and the one that is really me: wasted, burned out, lifeless.....
unlike any other, i never had a normal childhood. my parents got separated when i was 6, my father was alcoholic and never treated me as his daughter (like normal father do) its for simple reason that i have features that was my mother's. from that moment my realization was i will get into different environment.
i live a very hard life to the fact that i never enjoy my childhood since i worked early (child labor) to make both ends meet. i remember i was full of hope then and willing to get out of the situation. i got married at 21 and years passed i got my annulment and the child's custody.
here's my dillema:
people around me think am normal since they tend to see what is present. i have no problem in socializing, but once i'm alone, i feel this certain emptiness. sometimes i feel a lot tired of life. why is it have to be like this that sometimes i feel i've already achieved the goals that i need and now i've loss interest in life? i really want to bring back the feeling of having a goal.
what should i do? a lot of times, i woke in the middle of the night to feel restless. it seems that i have two faces: the one that i wear when am with the society and the one that is really me: wasted, burned out, lifeless.....