kelsischanging
Member
Hi,
It's just me...I'm kinda having a problem in therapy right now...I'm having alot of trouble opening up when it comes to hard issues...things like my dad's death, my step dad and certain events in my past when ever they come up or my therapist asks about them I just look at him and say I don't want to talk about that...my therapist thinks that these are some of my core issues...I don't know why I can't open up...I mean I like my therapist and I feel safe talking to him...it's just that I'm afraid of two things with certain issues...1)these issues are so painful for me...they make my heart hurt when I talk about them....2)these issues make me cry when I talk about them, and I don't cry...right after my dad's funeral my mom told me "no more tears" about my dad's death and as hard as it is for me not to cry I feel like I can't or I will be letting my dad and mom down...my therapist tells me that it's ok to cry and that it won't be the end of the world if I cry but I feel like it will be...I would be so embarressed....I don't know...I feel like if I can't open up we are going to hit a road block really fast here...and progress is going to stop really quickly...therapy is just so hard...thanks for reading...
It's just me...I'm kinda having a problem in therapy right now...I'm having alot of trouble opening up when it comes to hard issues...things like my dad's death, my step dad and certain events in my past when ever they come up or my therapist asks about them I just look at him and say I don't want to talk about that...my therapist thinks that these are some of my core issues...I don't know why I can't open up...I mean I like my therapist and I feel safe talking to him...it's just that I'm afraid of two things with certain issues...1)these issues are so painful for me...they make my heart hurt when I talk about them....2)these issues make me cry when I talk about them, and I don't cry...right after my dad's funeral my mom told me "no more tears" about my dad's death and as hard as it is for me not to cry I feel like I can't or I will be letting my dad and mom down...my therapist tells me that it's ok to cry and that it won't be the end of the world if I cry but I feel like it will be...I would be so embarressed....I don't know...I feel like if I can't open up we are going to hit a road block really fast here...and progress is going to stop really quickly...therapy is just so hard...thanks for reading...