So I've been angry with having the diagnosis of PTSD. Was diagnosed with it in 2008. I hate the stigma of being sick. I hate the letters PTSD. I just wanted to know what it would feel like not taking meds for it. This happened four days ago and the withdrawal symptoms are horrible. I can't get a hold of my Dr. To write my prescriptions. My husbands drug plan won't let allow them to be run through again until Feb. 17 by them my symptoms will be in full force. I texted my therapist and he told me to go to the hospital, and that he would call the psychiatrist on duty, says he has a good rapport with all of them. I so want to be normal but I guess that just won't happen, and I think I just need to accept the diagnosis. I don't think that I have ever accepted the diagnosis. Anyone else ever feel this way. I just feel that I have the letters PTSD on my forehead and that everyone can see it. I hate having mental illness or issues with my mental health. It's no wonder with all the things going on in my life that my therapist feels he needs helping me.