A Crow Left of the Murder
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I don't know why I'm lonely. I don't understand why I'm unable to make friends. Vanity and political correctness aside for a moment (excuse me while I self-indulge for the purpose of clarity): I'm a good looking 19 year old guy. I dress nice. I don't think I'm that socially awkward. I can be intelligent and down-to-earth. I'm open minded. I'm easy to get along with. I'm not argumentative... So, why the fuck do I find it so bloody hard to make friends!? At my age, I just can't get in with a group of people. The groups are already established. Nobody wants to take me in. I just don't understand it. I've been depressed most of my teenage life because of this. What makes it worse is that not having any friends is a vicious, perpetual cycle. You need friends to make friends.
I don't have any siblings. I don't know my father. I hardly talk to any of my cousins or other family members. My mother and I are completely different people with totally different views on life. Who the heck do I turn to? Nobody wants to be around a lonely person.
I've had the opportunity to go out with a lot of great girls these past few years, but I never go through with it. We go on a few dates, have a great time and then I realize I can't let her find out what a complete loser I am. Who would ever want to go out with some idiot that has no friends? It's all such a damn paradox!
I start college this September. I wish I were going away for it though. Then at least I'd have an excuse for not having any friends. There would be tons of people in my situation, thus making its easy to get in with a group. But alas, I'll be living at home to save money, going to a local University. Wish me luck anyways.
Do you think antidepressants would make the loneliness go away? I just can't take it anymore. It's too much pain.
I don't have any siblings. I don't know my father. I hardly talk to any of my cousins or other family members. My mother and I are completely different people with totally different views on life. Who the heck do I turn to? Nobody wants to be around a lonely person.
I've had the opportunity to go out with a lot of great girls these past few years, but I never go through with it. We go on a few dates, have a great time and then I realize I can't let her find out what a complete loser I am. Who would ever want to go out with some idiot that has no friends? It's all such a damn paradox!
I start college this September. I wish I were going away for it though. Then at least I'd have an excuse for not having any friends. There would be tons of people in my situation, thus making its easy to get in with a group. But alas, I'll be living at home to save money, going to a local University. Wish me luck anyways.
Do you think antidepressants would make the loneliness go away? I just can't take it anymore. It's too much pain.