Hi, I'm new here, I suffer from an anxiety disorder and currently doing CBT.
I've come a long way, and with that I find when I have my off days they hit me harder. Recently I've been having more yuk days and between a persistant cough, feeling the affects of the weather change and getting darker sooner, I really feel like I'm slipping abit. I don't want to and I'm trying to stay positive. Ofcourse, being female, PMS doesn't help and only magnifies my feelings. I've got it right now, so that is another reason why I'm feeling the way I am.
The past 3 or 4 days really have not been good. I've been pushing myself to get out of the house atleast once a day with the help of my husband. The anxiety at times and avoidance behaviour makes me feel agrophobic so I really do need to get out otherwise I tend to stick close to home or be inside.
I don't know what else to say right now except I want to feel better and work through these feelings. It comes and goes throughout the day/evenings and also the last few nights I haven't been able to fall asleep till atleast 1 or 2am and waking up wide awake at 6am. This morning I actually had a mini anxiety attack! I gagged until I felt better... I don't throw up ever, but it seems the only way to relieve my anxiety is to gag - Which can be quite embarressing when I'm out and about in public!
I felt better and wrote an email to my therapist then went back to bed around 7am and then woke up around 10am.
CBT has been good for me and I used to post on other anxiety boards but I feel the ones I joined, now aren't helping me as many that are there seem to reveal in their depression/anxiety or other illnesses. I am a moderator so therefore I do stick around to help others, but as for posting about myself, I don't feel like anybody there can help me as we're not in the same mental place, I am growing and getting better. It's sad because I made some wonderful online friendships but I feel like afew of them are pulling me down - Not on purpose, but they aren't doing much to better themselves and I am. That sounds selfish and mean doesn't it? But I can't help the way I feel. I need to have more positive people in my life and the online thing has helped me so much, but my life isn't online, it's out in the real world...We all still keep intouch, but I've had to detach from afew of them and put myself first more. I am thankful for their friendships but it's like I've outgrown them and now there are some hurt feelings, which I feel horrible about but it's something that has to be done if I am going to push through my own problems.
Thanks for reading, any comments, I'd appreciate that.
AM.
I've come a long way, and with that I find when I have my off days they hit me harder. Recently I've been having more yuk days and between a persistant cough, feeling the affects of the weather change and getting darker sooner, I really feel like I'm slipping abit. I don't want to and I'm trying to stay positive. Ofcourse, being female, PMS doesn't help and only magnifies my feelings. I've got it right now, so that is another reason why I'm feeling the way I am.
The past 3 or 4 days really have not been good. I've been pushing myself to get out of the house atleast once a day with the help of my husband. The anxiety at times and avoidance behaviour makes me feel agrophobic so I really do need to get out otherwise I tend to stick close to home or be inside.
I don't know what else to say right now except I want to feel better and work through these feelings. It comes and goes throughout the day/evenings and also the last few nights I haven't been able to fall asleep till atleast 1 or 2am and waking up wide awake at 6am. This morning I actually had a mini anxiety attack! I gagged until I felt better... I don't throw up ever, but it seems the only way to relieve my anxiety is to gag - Which can be quite embarressing when I'm out and about in public!
I felt better and wrote an email to my therapist then went back to bed around 7am and then woke up around 10am.
CBT has been good for me and I used to post on other anxiety boards but I feel the ones I joined, now aren't helping me as many that are there seem to reveal in their depression/anxiety or other illnesses. I am a moderator so therefore I do stick around to help others, but as for posting about myself, I don't feel like anybody there can help me as we're not in the same mental place, I am growing and getting better. It's sad because I made some wonderful online friendships but I feel like afew of them are pulling me down - Not on purpose, but they aren't doing much to better themselves and I am. That sounds selfish and mean doesn't it? But I can't help the way I feel. I need to have more positive people in my life and the online thing has helped me so much, but my life isn't online, it's out in the real world...We all still keep intouch, but I've had to detach from afew of them and put myself first more. I am thankful for their friendships but it's like I've outgrown them and now there are some hurt feelings, which I feel horrible about but it's something that has to be done if I am going to push through my own problems.
Thanks for reading, any comments, I'd appreciate that.
AM.