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I don't know where to put this really. Last time i went to dentist it did not go well lets say for the dentist.
I ended up somehow blacking out and um i injured dentist had by biting his hand. I have not gone back since . Too embarrassed really and to anxious that i might do this again. I need to go back my teeth are aching so much now.
I did call make an appt for tomorrow now i am wishing i did not do this. what if it happens again omg what if i space out again and do this never did this before i don't think i have always been able to keep present trying hard to think of ways i can stay present and not do this again.
Maybe try keeping eyes open this time maybe talking more but i tend to shut down i don't know I need the teeth fixed though uggg .
I know i need to breath slow breaths not get too anxious but hard when you know dentist will be anxious after what happened.
Perhaps it won't happen again perhaps i can keep me in control this time. Sorry just worried that all I don't want to harm anyone again i don't want to be triggered again . I could sense dentist anger afterwards don't blame him for being angry just don't know what to do.
I really don't want to change dentist yet again been through so many trying not to let anxiety from stopping me from getting care i need but so hard i feel i can go back and not have it happen again but what if it does.
I ended up somehow blacking out and um i injured dentist had by biting his hand. I have not gone back since . Too embarrassed really and to anxious that i might do this again. I need to go back my teeth are aching so much now.
I did call make an appt for tomorrow now i am wishing i did not do this. what if it happens again omg what if i space out again and do this never did this before i don't think i have always been able to keep present trying hard to think of ways i can stay present and not do this again.
Maybe try keeping eyes open this time maybe talking more but i tend to shut down i don't know I need the teeth fixed though uggg .
I know i need to breath slow breaths not get too anxious but hard when you know dentist will be anxious after what happened.
Perhaps it won't happen again perhaps i can keep me in control this time. Sorry just worried that all I don't want to harm anyone again i don't want to be triggered again . I could sense dentist anger afterwards don't blame him for being angry just don't know what to do.
I really don't want to change dentist yet again been through so many trying not to let anxiety from stopping me from getting care i need but so hard i feel i can go back and not have it happen again but what if it does.