Lately i've been cutting more and more frequently. i stopped for like two weeks a while ago but finally gave in. i know cutting isn't the solution but i can't stop, i feel so useless. Also, i've been getting more and more daydreams of suicide and hurting myself/others that i can't seem to concentrate at school at all except in short "bursts". Sometimes when i wake up i don't want to get up and face the crowds or any of the people, sometimes even friends, and when i get nervous i feel like somethings twisting my stomach. i feel slightly dizzy and my mind races with images of what could happen even if its obviously not going to. I haven't told anyone anything about any of this i thought i could handle it fine on my own despite my common sense telling me the contrary. I tried a few times, but when i do the words catch in my throat. i feel sick to the stomach and i just become overwhelmed with guilt, even when i think about it, and my brain plays endless scenarios of everyone reacting badly and being ashamed. even if i know that won't be the case i can't shake the thought of it. When i'm happy, or at least not wanting to commit suicide, it can take seconds to bring me back down. I guess im just really lost and need help on what to say because when i think of it my mind goes blank and i just can't think.