I'm scared as bedtime approaches

[braveheart]

Its nearly 9pm here. And once again I am scared.

My flatmates are away in India for another month.

There is noone in the flat upstairs, and the family downstairs are away just now.

So I am alone in the house.

I can, thankfully, lock my room door, and always do so, even with my flatmates here. [the people in the flat upstairs,when there is someone there, have to walk through our flat]. If there is a door I can lock, I always lock it.

Also, I've been having nightmares again the past week or so.

I take remeron at night, and that helps a bit.
And of course I am working hard in therapy, and all the time. I am doing all I can to reassure and comfort the child parts/feeling states.
When I was a child, I had nightime anxiety and nightmares and was often scared at night. A few times I 'saw' things in the dark of my room. It may have been sinusitis medication induced [I was on piriton and phenergan syrups, and otrivine nasal drops, for years...] But also could equally been suppressed anxiety induced.

I'm scared.

 

[Cat Dancer]

Re: scared as bedtime approaches

I'm sorry you're feeling scared.

I have bedtime issues too and it makes sleeping or thinking about sleeping just miserable.

I have a nice warm comforter that I like to wrap up in and tell myself I'm safe over and over. Sometimes it helps. Sometimes a warm drink helps, like hot chocolate or tea.

I hope you sleep ok.

 

[Cavi]

Re: scared as bedtime approaches

BH...I'm sorry your scared, wish I was there with you...RIMH

 

[sister-ray]

Re: scared as bedtime approaches

Thinking of you braveheart, wish I was in the flat below you or above you so you didnt feel so scared and alone:hug:

 

[Halo]

Re: scared as bedtime approaches

Braveheart,

I hope by now that you are having a peaceful, safe and sound sleep and that no nightmares happen for you tonight. I just wanted to send some hugs :hug: :hug: :hug: to you for safety and so you won't feel alone.

Take care
:hug:

 

[braveheart]

Thank you for all your kind and supportive thoughts.

I managed to have an internal dialogue/fantasy which helped a bit. No nightmares last night, at least that I remember, anyway...

 

[texasgirl]

BH,

I am so glad that you were able to get some peaceful sleep! Makes a huge difference on the next day, for sure.

Take care :hug:

TG

 

[braveheart]

Thanks jm.

 

[Halo]

Braveheart,

I am happy to hear that you had no nightmares last night and that you got some much needed rest

Take care
:hug: :hug:

 

[sunset]

I am glad to hear you had no nightmares too! How are things going for you now. How are you doing today?

 

[sister-ray]

im happy to hear your night went ok:hug:

 

[Cavi]

I am so glad you had a good night!...RIMH

 

[braveheart]

Thanks!

I'm home now, and its dark.

I think its my own feelings and memories that scare me...

I guess I just keep the internal dialogue and reassurance going...

 

[ThatLady]

It's great to hear that you were able to sleep without the nightmares last night, braveheart. Perhaps, you've hit on something that will help you! Keep up that internal dialogue/fantasy. Whatever works is what you need to do!

I hope you rest well again tonight, and please keep us posted. :hug:

 

[Cavi]

I managed to have an internal dialogue/fantasy which helped a bit. No nightmares last night, at least that I remember, anyway...

rimh takes deep breath and shyly asks...BH...what do you mean by internal dialogue/fantasy???...Thanks

 

[braveheart]

.. internal dialogue... with my other 'parts'/feeling states... my angry protesting protective child, depressed voiceless teenager, and the part I call 'Invisible Girl'. [I will maybe explain her another time, its all still very raw right now..]imagining my talking with them, doing what they need - in my imagination - what they need to feel safer - holding, to cry, to dance, to talk about what's distressing them. Does that make sense?

 

[Cavi]

yes it does.......thanks

 

[braveheart]