I'm in between numb and feeling something at this point. Conflicting -_- Best I can put it is my guard is really up.. I stupidly tried to let him in again, but what for? While still unsure.. Still thinking he should just leave cause this is too painful.
I'm on tons of waiting lists......... They never end. I guess maybe, hopefully, the social worker will help.... But really feels too late.
He wasn't even talking about sex, just sleeping beside/with friends...