More threads by Ashley-Kate

Well i am still in therapie and i have been sort of getting scared of something .. lately i have been not really gainning weight ... and well that is the hole goal in a way of this treatment to make me feel okay at a normal weight and well i am scared because i don<t want to lose anymore because it makes me want to go bak to my anorexi but i can<t do that .. i don't know what to do i should talk to my psychologist about it .. but i don<t know how .. i don<t want to lose but at the same time i don<t want to gain .. the desire to lose i alwaysthere but now i know that i can<t for my healt i don<t know what to do.... the more the therapie goes the more harder it is to keep that mentality..
please .. anybody any tips..
yours trully ashley-kate
ps I am proud of myself though because fo the first time n my life i am afraid to lose weight..
 
Well i am still in therapie and i have been sort of getting scared of something .. lately i have been not really gainning weight ... and well that is the hole goal in a way of this treatment to make me feel okay at a normal weight and well i am scared because i don<t want to lose anymore because it makes me want to go bak to my anorexi but i can<t do that .. i don't know what to do i should talk to my psychologist about it .. but i don<t know how .. i don<t want to lose but at the same time i don<t want to gain .. the desire to lose i alwaysthere but now i know that i can<t for my healt i don<t know what to do.... the more the therapie goes the more harder it is to keep that mentality..
please .. anybody any tips..
yours trully ashley-kate
ps I am proud of myself though because fo the first time n my life i am afraid to lose weight..
 

Heather

Member
Well done for the being scared about the loosing weight.

I wish that I had advice for you but I don't, but I am thinking of you and batting for you.

Heather...
 

Heather

Member
Well done for the being scared about the loosing weight.

I wish that I had advice for you but I don't, but I am thinking of you and batting for you.

Heather...
 

David Baxter PhD

Late Founder
Definitely talk to your psychologist, Ashley. That's what she/he is there for...
 

David Baxter PhD

Late Founder
Definitely talk to your psychologist, Ashley. That's what she/he is there for...
 

Eunoia

Member
hey ashley! hang in there. it's a tough battle with many ups and downs, but you're making progress- as you said for the 1st time you are afraid to lose weight. that is a major step!!! it makes sense how you're ambivalent about your feelings about losing weight vs. gaining weight. and you're right, getting you to a healthy weight is part of treatment but so much more comes w/ that. and you'll learn, as treatment goes on, how to deal w/ the part of you and the thoughts that are so afraid of gaining weight. remeber though, if this helps at all, they're just talking about a regular weight for your height/body shape... that doesn't mean fat! it's for your own health and happiness. and you're working so hard for that. do confide in your therapist, that's why they're there!!! I think therapy gets harder b/c you're "that much further" away from you ed but also so much closer to that scary "normal".... but that's almost a sign of progress in the right direction, right??? stay strong.
 

Eunoia

Member
hey ashley! hang in there. it's a tough battle with many ups and downs, but you're making progress- as you said for the 1st time you are afraid to lose weight. that is a major step!!! it makes sense how you're ambivalent about your feelings about losing weight vs. gaining weight. and you're right, getting you to a healthy weight is part of treatment but so much more comes w/ that. and you'll learn, as treatment goes on, how to deal w/ the part of you and the thoughts that are so afraid of gaining weight. remeber though, if this helps at all, they're just talking about a regular weight for your height/body shape... that doesn't mean fat! it's for your own health and happiness. and you're working so hard for that. do confide in your therapist, that's why they're there!!! I think therapy gets harder b/c you're "that much further" away from you ed but also so much closer to that scary "normal".... but that's almost a sign of progress in the right direction, right??? stay strong.
 

Diana

Member
Of course your mind is flip flopping. You're working on changing your mind set, and that's really hard to do. But, it's changing somewhat. That's excellent! It's normal to be really afraid of gaining weight uncontrolably, but that never happens. In fact, I had to go through a period when I ate a lot of fat just to push myself over a hump that I was stuck at with my weight gain. And, guess what. It helped, but that's all it did. I didn't balloon up - not even close. When you've starved yourself for long enough, your body just puts all the calories where it needs them. I'm not saying you'll have to jump into a high fat diet forever, or ever, but I'm just saying that you don't have to be afraid. We're all pulling for you, and you're doing great. The way you're feeling is just part of the process of getting better. You're questioning yourself and your feelings. It's all part of the recovery.
 

Diana

Member
Of course your mind is flip flopping. You're working on changing your mind set, and that's really hard to do. But, it's changing somewhat. That's excellent! It's normal to be really afraid of gaining weight uncontrolably, but that never happens. In fact, I had to go through a period when I ate a lot of fat just to push myself over a hump that I was stuck at with my weight gain. And, guess what. It helped, but that's all it did. I didn't balloon up - not even close. When you've starved yourself for long enough, your body just puts all the calories where it needs them. I'm not saying you'll have to jump into a high fat diet forever, or ever, but I'm just saying that you don't have to be afraid. We're all pulling for you, and you're doing great. The way you're feeling is just part of the process of getting better. You're questioning yourself and your feelings. It's all part of the recovery.
 

Similar threads

I was looking at books on Amazon and thought of you Lonewolf.The kindle edition of this book is free right now. It's called Life After Abuse,a practical healing guide for survivors.
Replies
76
Views
32K
This may not be possible, but could your "now" psychologist have a talk with this psychiatrist person who seems like such a jerk and explain more of your situation? Your psychologist understands what is going on and it just seems like the psychiatrist doesn't get it at all.
Replies
33
Views
12K
Update: Well, got the aero job that my last interview was for. I suppose that's good, in the sense that it's the best outcome.
Replies
3
Views
2K
Re: Venting Ashley, still thinking of you and sending you hope in my thoughts
Replies
51
Views
12K
First, you probably do have some of your mother's characteristics - and some of your father's - and some that are just uniquely you. Second, we do tend to model the behaviors of those close to us when we're growing up, so ye, you probably do have a tendency to model the behaviors you see in your parents and/or siblings, as qwell as your close friends. But that doesn't mean you're doomed to become like any of them. The major defense you have against this happening is awareness of what you...
Replies
1
Views
2K
Top